Intention: Joy

Today is the first day of my school's spring break. It couldn't not have come soon enough.

I started things off right with a guided meditation and massage at this place. Totally amazing. I was so overcome with emotion just stepping in to the place. I've really been craving that self-reflective, calming and peaceful place lately. The guided meditation was really, really nice. We were asked to set an intention, and I set mine as joy. After we set the intention the instructor told us that even as we set the intention, we should also aim to let it go insofar as expecting any specific outcome. We must, she said, have faith that things will unfold as they should and not get tied to any specific outcome. I love that. It made me think a lot about us being in the process of building our family - first through good ole-fashioned s.ex and then through adoption. I think it would have served me well to hear the instructor's words years ago. The meditation continued with three questions posed to us: who am I? what do I want? and what is my dharma (purpose in life)? I practice meditation on an irregular basis, and I'd never been led in a meditation in quite such a way. I really enjoyed it, and I hope I can go back again sometime soon.

In other news, work has been kicking my ass and Little A continues to fascinate and amaze me. She's just over 8 months now. I've been feeling very unsettled by the fact that there is only one day a week that the three of us (me, Little A and Mr. P) share together. Mr. P works Sunday - Thursday, and me M - F, so we only have Saturdays all together. It's got me wondering how long we can keep this up. We happen to both love our professions, though, so it's not like we are looking for a change in that sense. Hmm....

I am so looking forward to this next week where we will all be together. (Mr. P's company forced everyone to take two weeks off without pay, so he timed one of his weeks with my spring break.)

Happy Spring!